I'm so ashamed for not updating, lol. So, here's a quick entry. Quick, meaning I have to write it in 5 minutes, since I'll most probably be thrown out of the study area during lunch break.

- AC Milan lost!! I felt so sorry for poor Ricky (Kaka' :P). However, our commentator named him Milan's best player. sweeeet.
- I'm going to the play off match Ajax-Feyenoord tonight!! Can't wait honestly, my dad's going to pick me up straight after school.. It's like, the rivals. For a Champions League place. And, Markus can play! (Yay Trace, my band-aid-voodoo thing worked!!)
- I've been sick the past week, and even though the fever is gone, my voice is weird. My throat hurts. And I can't properly talk, so people are giving me weird looks all the time. Hey, I can't help it!
- I finished my Lithuania project/paper/essay thing today! The reason why I'm in the study area and not in math class, lol. Ooh, I'm skipping maths. I'm bad.

This was probably very un-interesting and all, lol. But I got to go now.. Keep your fingers crossed for ajax tonight, will you?!?

EDIT: Re-reading this entry, I came to the conclusion I am an unequalled complainer. Please do not read if you can't stand any complaints.

They rejected me!!! *cries* Okay, I already sort of expected it, but their letter was so harsh, and my German teacher was so disappointed in me.. I'm talking about the German scholarship thing. I wanted to go so badly, just to get out of this place next summer for a month or so, and now they rejected me!! Even though I was prepared for this rejection, it hurts. I didn't realize how much I wanted to go.. Until today, that is. Arrrgh. So now I'm forced to spent the entire summer at home, with a dad and brother who are in a constant fight, and a mother who's sort of ignoring me. No, ignoring is the wrong word. She just.. doesn't have time for me. Lots of time for her boyfriend, yes, but time for her own daughter? Nope.

School's killing me.. And so is work. My to-do-list:

- study FOURTEEN tests for next week.
- write TWO English book essays, THREE Dutch ones, and ONE German one.
- write an essay about Lithuania for geography
- write an essay about 'the Last Emperor' for history
- write an essay about the influence of interest on the inflation level for economics
- write an essay about planets and their moons for science
- prepare a Dutch speech about a 'social question'
- prepare a warming up for PE
- talk to the head of my department about my after-school plans
- fill in and hand in some stuff for my bank account
- try to do my THREE different jobs as good as possible
- painting and arranging my new room
- packing my books/clothes/other stuff
..... probably some more things. I forgot.

I better get started. Chau chau.

Ohhhh, I forgot. I hugged Markus and Klaas Jan! Sort of, lol. Didn't expect it, but I was so happy. Weird, how a dull friday can turn into an exciting trip with some class mates! :P They're my lights in the darkness, or how do you say that. So freaking adorable and kjoet in real life!!! And so soft. Hahahahahaha. Don't ask me the details, it was pretty, um, embarrasing. For a change. But, I half-hugged them!! ;P

Might be hard to believe me, but I'm so bored.. While there are so many things I have to do! I can spend this time writing one of my essays, reading one of my language books, studying for the testweek, pack my books and all.. But I'm doing nothing. Feels good. Should do it more often.

Amsterdam was great! I didn't go to school in the morning (shame on me :P) but decided to go there early. The trip was awesome (train, ferry, tram, subway, bus) and Amsterdam was even better! Spent quite some time just hanging out.. Plus, some Italian tourists asked me the way, and I actually knew it! That was so cool, lol. (Let's just forget that het Leidseplein the most famous spot is..) The selection committee however wasn't nice, at all! I felt as if I was in front of the Pop Idol jury, they just snapped at us. Ah well, I don't care.. Amsterdam was great, I just love that city!

Speaking about Amsterdam, Ajax lost yesterday.... Okay, I already sort of expected it, 2-2 in the homematch isn't exactly a great result for the return match, but still. Inter Milan was better, we just lacked experience (our avarage age was 20,5! ack!) and we missed so many players, like Sneijder, Galasek, Emanuelson.. I don't even care about it, soccer was put back in his context yesterday after the little daughter of Schreuder died.. Schreuder's playing for our rivals, but it's so horrible, and I feel so sorry for him and his family! The poor girl was only 6, and suffering a brain tumour. Children shouldn't die. Life's unfair.. R.I.P. Anouk Schreuder.. :(

Hey I'm alive. (only just.)

Australia was so awesome, really! I love Sydney, especially at night, and everything was just amazing! Cuddled koalas, fed kangaroos, went surfing, visited Olympic Park, walked through the rain forest, swam inbetween the sharks, got lost by taking the wrong train, shopped a lot in Sydney, spent quite some days on the beach, watched AFL matches, got trapped in an elevator with two guys from the Super-14 rugby team 'the Sharks'.. The people are so relaxed! Everybody was like 'no worries, mate', and I simply love that attitude! The only bad thing was the flight, 24 hours is too long. I think we spent about 37 hours just travelling: to the airport, waiting, flight, waiting, flight, waiting, going home. Airplanes aren't that comfortable either, my knee hurts and I didn't sleep at all, so I was so tired when I got home. Plus, the evil evil jetlag. Anyway, had a great time.

Unfortunately, I'm back. Don't get me wrong, I did actually like going back, but it's more school that's bothering me. I have a testweek coming up in TWO weeks, and I have THIRTEEN tests. Haven't learned any of them. Have to hand in FOUR papers, TWO essays and THREE bookreports (including a paper about Lithuania. I mean, wtf?!). And next Monday, I have to go to Amsterdam by myself for the German solarship-selection-thing. I haven't practised my German! Arrrgh. As you probably noticed, I'm stressed out. Put the moving on top of all my schoolwork, and you'll understand why I'm close to a nervous breakdown. Things will be better in three weeks: I'll be settled in the new house, and I'll be done with the tests and everything for some time. YAY.

Just to let you know how bad it is: I'm not sure about going to Ajax-PSV tomorrow, even though we have tickets. I want to go so badly.. But school.. grmbl. I think I'll go anyway, Ajax is the only thing keeping me sane right now. I'm really addicted, and I'm counting the days until next wednesday.. Ajax - Inter! The return match, a week after the other ties (AC MILAN WON! KAKA SCORED! PSV LOST 4-0 YAY!) and they have to win. They HAVE to! I'm quite confident in fact, they're doing so well lately! They won 6-0 TWICE, (when I was in Australia ofcourse) and they're playing quite good. And Markus is first in the Man of the Season election, so excited! So, they're playing PSV tomorrow, the rivals. Will be a nice match..

I'll quit the soccer stuff now, and study for a bit. Just wanted to let you know I'm still here, and won't be online the coming few weeks. Je suis tres desolee.

OMG just realized I forgot something rofl. I met Trrracle! She's such a sweetheart, and we watched some things she taped in Sydney, really kjoet lol. Her mother's very nice, too! Oh, Trace, the photo is verrry nice, I'll post it next time :P. Will you believe I was in some kind of shock after I left? I felt so weird about meeting you, lol. Only realized it in the car back home.. :P

Oh my, I didn't update for so long! And I won't update that much the next three weeks either: I'M LEAVING FOR AUSTRALIA TOMORROW!111!! So excited, I'm leaving in 13 hours from Amsterdam Airport.. Can't wait. Trace, I'll contact you on friday or something, ok?

I'll miss all of you! Love you! Oh, I don't have everyone's address yet, mail me your address and I'll sent you a card!

Testweek finished, yay! And, as our head of department said, 'all of you are halfway through the 5th grade now!' Such a shame his familiar 'so I want to speak all of you next week about your grades' followed right after. These little meetings are awful, he talks about every test, every subject, every teacher.. And I'm not too sure I did well. Meaning, him pretending to be sad: 'No Sharai dear, I'm not angry. Only very disappointed.' How I hate that sentence.

Actually, this testweek was really nice (apart from the tests, eh.). Every day we had to wait quite some hours inbetween the tests, and I got to know some classmates better. For example, now I know there's another girl adoring Ajax in the other VWO class, so we spent quite some time chatting about Rosenberg, Huntelaar and the others. The big tv screen in the relaxing area was also working, which was really cool: everytime there's a big sporting event, we can watch it. And this week they decided to put on ES, so we could watch the tennis! The best day was tuesday I think, we were watching Bambi play and I got some girls to support him as well, so we were 'Come oooon'-ing all the time. The same happened yesterday when they were showing some of Dutchie Sluiter's match vs Igor. In favour of Raemon, obviously, even though we knew the result lol.

Ajax sold Julien Escude!!! Not amused. Oh well, we still have Rosenberg and Huntelaar. Rosenberg was elected second best player of Ajax during the first half of the season, really nice. (Wesley Sneijder was first, obviously.) Such a shame they're only 9th or so in the league, they won't even make the play offs if they continue this way! AC Milan is also crap lately, and they're accusing Kaka of arrogance!!! Excuse me, Italians acusing someone else of arrogance. That's so not right. He was substitute last match, I felt so sorry for him. He looked really sad and lost.

Ice skating! Oh my, the European Championships in Hamar last weekend was a mess for the Dutchies. Speedskating, eh. Bob de Jong decided it would be a nice idea to run over teammate Jochem Uythehaage, Mark Tuiters tripped over a chair and injured his back, and Sven Kramer (my fave..) was having troubles with his skating suit.. On top of that, the icemachine broke down, so the track thawed. Which led to funny jokes of our silly commentators: 'We just heard Pieter v/d Hoogenback (swimmer) won the 1500 m. in Hamar!' Haha. Okay, I laughed, but it was so silly. The same commentator was having troubles pronouncing the name of Raemon Sluiter's opponent in the 2nd round: 'Iewjoor Andrijvie' WTF? It took me a while to figure out they meant poor Igor, rofl.

There are radio commercials with the Dutch players telling me to buy tickets for the Davis Cup match vs Russia. 'Help us to beat them!' I want to go so badly! Going to kill the person who picked Amsterdam.

Argh, my ipod is having a will of its own, and I can't call/be called/text/be texted with my phone. Argh.

EDIT: Huh, I would swear there was another entry? Where on earth did it go? Anyway, just found the cover of the new Sport International => Dutch sports magazine. ( Look look it's Sven Kramer on front!!!11!1! )

Why did no one ever tell me how hawt Tommy Haas actually is?!?! OmG sOoOw KjOeT!!1!!1!! I think I found myself a new favorite. (To drool over, that is.) He looks so different and so nice with short hair. I love him, and his hair. It's darker, it accentuates his handsome face and his pretty dark eyes. Droooool. And, he speaks German, so he might be one of the few faves I have I can actually talk with, without having the troubles I'm having in English. This is not the girly Tommy, this is cute Tommy. Replaced, I swear. Looks so different. Oh drool.

Uhm, as some of you might know, my testweek is coming up (one week and a few days). So, life's all about studying, again. Therefore, you might not see me online for the coming, say, two weeks.. Je suis desolee.. Trace, have fun in Sydney with your Radek stalking (and try to fetch Tommy's autograph as well, in case he's coming ;)). Sam, Cambridge people are bastards. St Andrews is much better anyway, believe me. Cambridge.. *mutters* They only have nice taxidrivers and yummy chocolate, the rest is crap. Miss you all.

ps: Eurosport is actually showing ATP tennis => reason why I became a Tommy fangirl, lol. He's losing the semis, against Nose. Grmbl. Auf gehts, Tommmmmyyyy!
ps: Mm, Tommy lost, and there's a guy I really really don't recognise playing the other semis vs Monfils now. Weeeeird. He's very cute! This year is starting very well, two new faves in an hour time. Not bad! Have to find out who he is now.. :P

Ajax was SO awesome and SO cold, lol! Honestly, the ArenA is such a pretty stadium, really impressive! The atmosphere, the people, everything was just great. I was shaking all over when hearing about 40.000 people wholeheartedly supporting their team, singing along with Andre Hazes' songs, cheering loudly after scoring a goal.. So impressive! Whoever might be so stupid (:P) to visit me some day, must go with me to a match. Period.

Anyways, let's start from the beginning. I left for Amsterdam around 14:45, together with my dad and Redmar. It was busy, lots of traffic, and it had been snowing, so everything was pretty white. Around 16:30, we reached Amsterdam, and I saw the ArenA (Ajax stadium) for the very first time. Really impressive, so huge and so pretty from the outside! Of course, we were too early (match started at 20:15), so we were walking around the stadium, visiting the training complex, etc. It was already pretty cold, -2 degrees I think, and with a very cold wind. We went for dinner, and left the restaurant around 18:15. It was warm in the restaurant, so when we came out, it was SO COLD. Honestly, no fun. And it was snowing again.. After waiting for like 20 minutes at the gates, we were allowed to enter the stands. Our seats were on the first row, so we had an excellent view. After spending one hour and a half just taking pictures, admiring the stadium and cheering on the players while they were doing their warming up, the match started.

In the 7th minute my darling Markus Rosenberg scored, woot! Nice goal, and everybody went wild, chanting his name.. That was a great moment, he was so happy. Later in the first half, Charisteas scored twice (once after a very pretty assist of Markus!) and we lead 3-0! It was getting colder and colder though, everyone was jumping and singing just to stay warm. I felt as if my toes and fingers were freezing off, but I didn't really care.. The second half wasn't as good as the first half, kinda boring in fact, and after Markus got a substitute in the 80th minute (he got a loud ovation, everyone was chanting his name and clapping.. :)) our attack was weak. Groningen (the opponent) managed to score twice, so the last few minutes were nerve wracking! They made it though, and my dad and me decided to buy tickets for the next home match straight away! (15 January I think!) Woot. I was so happy, but couldn't stop shaking in the end.. Cooooold :P

( Photos of the stadium and the warming up, and a few of the match. Couldn't take more of the match, my fingers refused to handle a camera. Photos are very shaky, blame the cold and excitement.. )

I apologise to everybody not liking soccer.. (like, everyone except for Sam :P) My next entry will be a more decent one, I promise.

I'M GOING TO AJAX I'M GOING TO AJAX I'M GOING TO AJAX!!!!111!!!!11! Leaving for Amsterdam in a few minutes, shopping a bit, and THE MATCH TONIGHT!!!!1!!!!11!!! So excited, lol!

p.s.: Saaaaam. *hug* My sympathys, I feel for you, they will do better. I'm sure. Don't be sad :)
p.s.: My knee still hurts. Maybe I should see a doctor or so.

I survived the snowboarding :). It was very nice, even though a stupid guy who couldn't board at ALL decided it would be a good idea to board off the piste, towards the place where I was releasing my board. And yes, because he didn't learn how to steer or brake yet, he crashed into me. My knee hurts terribly now, and is a mix between blue/red/purple and very swollen, #$%^%&$%#%@#%@%#@^!!. Having troubles walking.. But, it was fun, I think there's a picture of me. Somewhere.

Still didn't get the Christmas cards (will be Easter cards by now) out. Sorry Trace, Mandz, Noemi, Beth and Linze, had no time.. You'll get them anyway, don't worry. Maybe next week. What's more. Nothing, I guess. Have to go to work now.

(Ohh, my school allowed me to miss two weeks in February due to Australia. Nice of them, didn't expect it to be honest.)

Jealous at Trace. Bambi's going to Sydney. Grr. (Have fun though hun, and don't forget to develop your photo's this time!)

I hate Christmas, such a busy period.. This week I've been in school 7.30/17:30 almost every day, working until 20:30, babysitting (new job, woot. or not.) until 10 or 11 or so. Argh. Christmas Gala yesterday, great fun, went for dinner with my class first. Only, it lasted till 5, and I had to be at school again 2,5 hours later.. The electricity failed halfway, so we were just sitting there with candlelight and people singing. Cute. But I'm oh-so-tired now, and it's sports day tomorrow: I FINALLY GET TO SNOWBOARD AGAIN YAY! Has been quite a while, 2 months I think. It's in the Hague though, so I have to be at school in 5 hours. Arrrgh, I'm lacking sleep, and so freaking tired. Snowboarding is awesome though :) Anyone of you ever done it? If not, do it. Fantastic. I'll try to get some photos of me snowboarding, lol.

(this was such an incoherant entry. I think you notice my washed-out ness? :P)

For Trace:
Kaká, real name Ricardo Izecson dos Santos Leite, (born April 22, 1982 in Brasília) is a Brazilian football player who currently plays for A.C. Milan in the Italian Serie A. He wears the number 22 shirt for the club.

He got his nickname "Kaká" because his little brother Rodrigo could not pronounce the word Ricardo when they were young. Rodrigo called his older brother "Caca" which Ricardo later changed to "Kaká".

He made his debut at São Paulo FC in 2001 while he was only 19 years old. He scored 12 goals in 27 appearances and a further 10 goals in 22 appearances the following season. He attracted attention from European clubs and it was Milan who won the race to sign him.

Kaká joined Milan in 2003 for an €8.5 million fee, his first appearance coming in a match at Ancona, which Milan won 2-0. In all, he scored 10 goals in 30 appearances that season, winning the Italian Serie A Championship and the European Super Cup.

He was an integral part of the team in 2004/2005, usually playing in a withdrawn role behind striker Andriy Shevchenko in a five man midfield. He scored seven goals in 36 league appearances, winning the Italian Super Cup. However, the team failed domestically, losing the Serie A title to Juventus, and losing the UEFA Champions League final to Liverpool on penalty kicks.

Making his international debut in January 2002 against Bolivia, he was in Brazil's squad at the 2002 World Cup, but did not see much action as Brazil took the World Championship. He played just 19 minutes of a first round match against Costa Rica. Later, he was also in action at the 2004 Copa América and the 2005 Confederations Cup, which were both won by Brazil. The Confederation Cup final won by Brazil over Argentina saw him scoring for the Seleção. More recently, he has helped Brazil qualify for the 2006 World Cup. Kaká has matured as a player and is currently considered one of the best Brazilian footballers.

His greatest goal is considered to be the one he scored against Fenerbahçe SK in AC Milan's first game in the 2005/2006 Champions League; won 3-1 by the Rossoneri. Kakà started his run from midfield and skipped past three tackles before entering the area and finishing with a low shot under the goal-keeper.In 2004, Kaká was joint 10th in FIFA World Player of the Year award, and seems on target to better this in the 2005 awards, as he was voted the best midfielder in the UEFA Champions League tournament of 2004/2005. He ended up 9th on the 2005 Golden Ball (European football player of the year) standing earning 19 votes.

His younger brother Rodrigo (Rodrigo Izecson Dos Santos Leite - known as "Digão") followed in his footsteps and is currently on loan to Serie B team Rimini, after having spent some time in the AC Milan youth squad.

When AC Milan won the Serie A title in 2004, "Ricky" (as he is called by his team-mates) sported a shirt with an "I Belong to Jesus" slogan. This is because Ricky risked his life by badly jumping off a diving-board which caused him the fracture of a vertebra. This could have meant the end of his football career but he believes Jesus allowed him to recover and become the star footballer he now is. For this reason, every time he scores he points his fingers to the sky as a sign of thanks.

The nickname Kaká is pronounced as it is spelled (in his native Portuguese). The accent would signify that the stress is on the second syllable. In Italian, the language of his current team, the phonetic equivalent is written Kakà, which is used for Italian television graphics. However, the player's shirt name is spelt KAKA' (with an apostrophe, rather than an accented 'A'), for both Brazil and Milan.

( Some photoooos. Merci Gettyimages. )

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WTF Livejournal? Are you doubting I'm a human? *insulted*. I've never ever seen this warning/sentence/whatever before, and now it just seems to appear every time I want to log in! Craziness. *shakes head*

Everybody reading this, your Christmas cards will be late. Probably even January. I'm busy, and only finished half of the cards - of people I don't really know. So, Linze, Trace, Mandz, Noemini, and some more: don't hold your breath for it, lol. Speaking about Christmas, it was Christmas Market yesterday evening! Always fun, but it was so cold and windy now.. Huge fires kept me warm though, and there were some kind of choirs, really nice.

OHH! MY DAD BOUGHT TICKETS FOR AJAX - GRONINGEN ON 27TH OF DECEMBER!!! He made us member of the club, so you can buy tickets and stuff, and their so so so good! It's like, first row! Only a few meters away from the field! YAY! I'm so excited, and gonna take lots and lots of pictures (of Markus, that is.) Click ( here ), it's the stadium. Our seats are somewhere inbetween 019 and 020. NICE! :P

Lastly, this week was very tiring, but not exciting or so. I had some kind of lecture/training for three days, which was fun. Yesterday, the teacher made some photos, and they aren't that bad. ( Here they are. ) The first one is weird, I'm not always sitting like that, but I just received a text.. Was scared, lol. The second one is me and some friends working, the last one is the group photo after we passed the training.. I think you know who I am?

Have to write some more cards now..

Saaaaaaaaaaam good luck at Cambridge today! You'll make it, I'm sure! Go go go! (but come back very soon to console me on Ajax and Milan's crappy performances, OK?) I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you :)

Julia is annoying lately, I'm too lazy to write down what happened once again, so I'll just copy paste the convo I had with Trace. ( Julia's evil story, very gross. ) And, I got my report yesterday! I'm very happy with it to be honest, so happy that I decided not to retake any tests today, so I was freee! ( Shaar bragging about her marks )

My cousin bought me the Dutch version of Harry Potter and the Halfblood Prince, called Harry Potter en de Halfbloed Prins. I like him, and I like the book, even though the English one is way better. I still didn't watch Harry Potter and the Globet of Fire, no time to go to the cinema.. Besides, no one wants to go with me. *sigh* Harry Potter haters. I'm angry at Ajax, AC Milan and Madrid, how on earth is it possible that my three fave teams seems to lose all their matches lately? And, all of them are low in the rankings.. Ce n'est pas bien. Rosenberg (Ajax striker, hawt) and Kaka (you know him) played very well even though they lost.

The Worldcup draw is still the talk of the day over here, everybody's just cursing at Germany for the bad draw for us, and the very good draw for Germany. Hahah, kinda funny actually! Well, I'm supposed to be studying for the upcoming testweek (one month away..) and finishing writing my christmas cards! I've only written 4 of the 14 so far, for people I don't really know from the CCI project, and these are already huge essays, so all of you can expect a gigantic letter! Don't know whether I'll be able to get them out this week, seeing as I'm not very productive, but I'll try.

Mr. Van Gessel, my German teacher, chose me for the international program in Germany this year! Every year, 19 Dutch students are allowed to go to Germany for 3 or 4 weeks, for free. In the summer holidays though. 14 students will go to a host family in Brandenburg, in the south-east, and visit the same school as the host family's child. That one is for three weeks, but the other one (4 weeks!) sounds more interesting to me. Four students are allowed to go to Dortmund, where the international program will start. Every student gets a group with students from all over the world, and first they'll travel by train through the south for one week, then they'll stay in a host family in a German city for two weeks, and the last week they'll visit Munchen, Berlin, etc.

I really hope I'll get in! I have to write a letter (in German) first, and a committee will pick 50 students. These have to go to Amsterdam, and have a chat with someone. After that, the 19 representatives will be chosen. It'll be very hard to get in, seeing as there are over 250 candidates, but I'll try. Speaking about holidays, Australia is only two months away! Can't wait, even though my school still has to give permission.. It will work out, my head of department isn't a trouble maker. Blahblah. This entry reminds me of my Christmas cards.. Just random and useless chattering. Anyway, I'll stop it now, since Julia's attacking my Christmas tree.

First of all, thank you for your sweet comments! I love you girls :). Hmm, I didn't update this entire week, so let's see.. Monday was quite cool, it was 'Sinterklaas' day (ask me if you want to know what it is :P) so there were Zwarte Pieten running through the school, disturbing all the lessons, annoying the teachers, throwing candy and pepernoten (cookies shaped like nuts).. Nice, lol. During the breaks, the canteens were closed, so the corridors were extremely crowded. And yes, the Zwarte Pieten were throwing candy all over the place, everybody was throwing back.. Ack, dangerous, but fun nonetheless.

I made some Christmas cards, bought / made pressies.. *thinks* Further, this week was pretty boring. Oh, except for yesterday. World Cup draw, woot. I loved Johan's face while grabbing the balls (no weird thoughts puhlease!) but I don't like our draw, grmbl. (Yes Sam, I strongly dislike it! Lucky England. Pfff.) Argentina, Cote d'Ivoire and Serbia & Montenegro. We'll make it though, we have Marco. Hah. It was a tad disappointing, I hoped for a Netherlands/Australia/Korea/Trinidad & Tobego group, 4 Dutch coaches!

Saaam, (and everyone else but I'm afraid no one else watched it) didn't you just adore the cheering when the Netherlands was drawn? Hahahaha, and the look of that guy towards Cruijff - 'Yes, it is the Netherlands!' Just gotta love the German/Dutch rivalry.

(for Tracey: WC draw means World Cup draw (soccer) and surely not Wildchild draw. OK?)

I feel not good.. Why is life so hard? And, why are divorces in general so hard? I don't get it. I JUST DON'T GET IT. Okay, you probably don't get it, so I'll explain. My mum moved out of the house, last week I guess, after a big fight with my dad. Ended up that he sortof threw her out of the house, didn't let her in, she almost called the police, etc etc. Well, she's living with her bf now, so I hardly see her. That's already depressing, since I love her very much. Seeing her trying to sneak in to get some stuff, and my parents fighting about that just breaks my heart, it honestly does.

This night, she came to visit me at my work. I was very happy, I missed her so much. My boss wanted her to take me home, but we decided to go to her new place and talk for a bit. Afterwards, about half an hour ago, she took me home, but I made the stupid mistake of letting her come in with me. Well, my dad was just scared, and they started fighting again, the worst so far I think. My mum went away, crying, and I'm seriously worried about her because her bf is in Denmark and she's all alone. My dad just yelled at me for a second, and started crying afterwards.

Believe me, the worst thing ever is seeing the two persons you love so much fighting all the time, and seeing them broken and sad afterwards. My dad apologised, saying it's not my mistake but that he's just so unhappy and blabla.. It's alright, I understand, but I feel sad about it. I hate seeing them upset, but whatever I do, it just seems to happen. Whenever I visit my mom, or plan to do something with her, my dad gets sad about him losing me, and just comes in my room in the middle of the night, crying and telling me I'm the only reasom he's still alive. I feel bad about going to mum, because of that, but mum gets sad when I don't visit her..

Tell me, what should I do?!? I really don't know. Visit mum and making dad sad, or staying with dad and making mum sad? My heart just breaks whenever I hurt any of them two, and I didn't even start about Redmar.

I vowed that I will never ever get this attached to a man. I know how much love can hurt. Never, I swear.


ps: on top of that, our heating is stuck. I had a cold shower, and we're without warmth while it's freezing outside. grmoeajgdf.

I didn't feel very well tonight, so I went in an online search for funny things. And yes, I found something. You've got to be extremely corny to like it, but whatever. It's fun. *snickers*

( Here is the game )

ROFL. Mine isn't very interesting: I robbed myself and it was boring. I did it for some famous people (told you, I'm bored) and some of them are hilarious :)
Like:
Roger Federer - I shot a flamingo and then I streaked
Rafael Nadal - I robbed some random guy and then I streaked
Lleyton Hewitt - I had babies with a statue at school
Nikolay Davydenko - I robbed Michael Jackson in the pool
Guillermo Coria - I partied with a Teletubby because my mum told me to
Gaston Gaudio - I had drunken sex with a bag of chips because my mum told me to
Marat Safin - I partied with my shoes and I had twins
Juan Carlos Ferrero - I had babies with my English teacher to be sexy
Tommy Robredo - I peed on George Bush because I was drunk
Radek Stepanek - I got married to my shoes and then I streaked
Igor Andreev - I ate myself for my girlfriend
Carlos Moya - I shot my shoes and it sucked
Fernando Verdasco - I got married to a ninja to eat cheese
Feliciano Lopez - I beat up my finger to eat cheese
Joachim Johansson - I ate George Bush to be sexy
Andy Murray - I peed on a ninja and I threw up
Kim Clijsters - I robbed a flamingo and it was fun
Maria Sharapova - I messed around with a box and had twins
Serena Williams - I beat up a hippo and it was boring
Cristiano Ronaldo - I had babies with Frankenstein and it sucked
Lance Armstrong - I beat up an apple at school

Whahahahahha. I'm cracking up. I need a life.

There is something wrong. I don't know what it is, but I've been feeling so.. weird the last couple of days. Hard to explain what it feels like, it's not even sad or so, no just weird. I'm not the only one, everyone here is a bit restless and busy. Teachers aren't very happy with it, even though they're busy themselves. Just weird. Nothing important, I guess *shrugs*. Might be the weird weather and the flu epidemic.

When I walked to the busstop this morning, the sky was so pretty. All colors, red, yellow, pink, blue.. It was still slightly dark, and there were some stars, and weird shaped clouds. I've never seen something like it before. So pretty. It was very cold though, we had to wait about 80 freaking minutes when returning from PE, because the person who was SUPPOSED to pick us up fell asleep. ARGHHSFGFSG. So we just stood there, the other side of the city, no one there to take us to school. We weren't amused.

Johan Cruijff was on tv yesterday, in some kind of talkshow. He's such a genius, honestly! It's a program where people discuss the news, and there are always some guests who've done something special. Well, Johan was just talking 90% of the time, and his reasoning is just unbelievable. Every single subject, from taxes and Barcelona to traffic queque ('the maximum speed on highways should be increased to 180 km/h, so that people will be off the ways faster') and trees. I adore that guy, lol.

Ohhhh! I got my maths grade back, lol. Actually, it were two, one of level 3 and one of level 4. Level 4 was easy as what, and the grade was very good, but level 3.. It was damn hard, only filled in like 2 of the 20 questions, but I somehow managed to get a 2,7! OK, I'm surprised, but it's still very bad. Like, 5,5 is avarage, so 2,7 is bad. Very bad. I can retake it, so tis alright. :)

I was just wondering, is there someone here interesed in ice skating? *hears the silence* I'm totally fond of it, especially my country man Sven Kramer. He's only 19 years old, but already sweeping all the older skaters off the skating rink. Well, the season started only a few weeks ago, and Sven already skated a new world record on the 5000 meter, WOOT! I was so happy, and so was he! I'm sure he'll do well at the Olympics in a few months! If you don't know him (I don't blame you), ( here is a photo )

Mmm, Ajax is playing tonight. Champions League, against Sparta Prague I think. Will they continue this fabulous record of more than 700 minutes without scoring a goal? (scored by a player of Ajax and in the right goal) I'm curious. Don't think they will, but aw, I'll have a good laugh. As usual. DANNY BLIND, BRING BACK JULIEN ESCUDE!! I miss him :(

Oh, the bell rings. Have to go to my lesson.

Went to Rotterdam today! I haven't been there for ages (OK, 3 weeks) but that might've been because of the exploding cars and such lately. I've got to go there in two weeks all by myself, have to speak to the judge about the divorce and such. I think I saw Dirk Kuyt (soccer player) in the V&D (warehouse), wasn't sure about it. Contemplated asking for an autograph/photo, didn't do it in the end. He's not my fave by any means, so yeah.

Woot, we have a new world record. A very nice one, KNOCKING OVER AS MANY DOMINOES AS POSSIBLE. 'Twas Dominoes Day yesterday, broadcasted on TV and all, and about 4.115.453 dominoes fell. World record. We're weird, lol. My maths teacher is overworked, I'd like to think it is because of my grand *cough cough* grade, so no maths for the coming weeks. No free hours however, school introduced a new 'buddy' subject so that every pupil in the 4th, 5th or 6th grade has to take a 'buddy' in the 1st, 2nd or 3rd. So you have to mentor them, help them with their homework, feed them during the breaks (:P). I happened to get the little son of my economics teacher and my Latin teacher (who are married) and they keep on telling me to pass on my 'excellent working attitude to the boy'. OMG. I'm so overrated.

OK, have to work soon. Argh, the other girl is sick, so it's only me and my boss. Stressssy. Anyways, felt like I couldn't withhold you some photos of Kaka' (for you, Sam :P). His full name is Ricardo Izecson dos Santos Leite, 23 years old, from Brazil and playing for AC Milan. ( Just look at the hotness. )